Monday, January 11, 2010

Separation Anxiety

Today is the first time that I left the house at 8:30am and will not return until after 5. Matt is home with Daniel, beginning the process of learning his own ways of being a stay-at-home Dad, which he will be until work for the next election begins.

At 9am I went to a spin class for the first time since I got pregnant. I chose a bike at the back of the room and about 10 minutes in, I began to cry my eyes out. Luckily the music was so loud that no one heard me sob and the tears were easily masked by the sweat dripping down my face.

The day has gotten easier. I've been at my office all day meeting with people and slowly being filled with an anticipation of returning to my old self: the professional woman who is smart and successful and fun and who actually has friends who are older than 6 months old or who share my last name.

I think being a working mom is going to kick ass.


  1. you already kick ass... tears and all. congratulations on feeling emotions you never knew possible, and knowing how to embrace them.
    xo -marji

  2. you rock, my friend.

  3. its gonna be great. you are marni, and you will roar!